Wednesday, August 31, 2005

CO performance
overall i think is not bad...though xy still have the usual problem but who care rite? as long as we knoe we did our best. 3 cheeres 4 xy ppl!! especially kwang ying&chong hui... can see that they tried their very best...once we try our best, there's no regret. Not really attend sch 2day as all is occupied by co. I left my "husband" in co room...now feel quite bad...should bring it home wan*sob* now must wait 4 1 and 1/2 wk b4 i get him back
Nan Hua
long journey back to nh man, but luckily end early so slowly take our time 2 go back...waited quite long b4 the others came....den we keep writing wishes 4 our teachers b4 we go& find there...feel so gd 2 c pandian&siew again...pandian is getting use of his students saying:" Mr pandian, I fail my physics in JC" hahaha...i'm one of them too:P den after dat we 1 whole grp go 2 the usual place to eat the usual thing again...lolx....and toking crap...i found out that i have less topics to tok wif them...i dun noe common ppl so im unable to go in to any of their conversation... quite sad abt this but who can help it... it always happen in life...so we can only accept it...
btw nan hua gonna change name 2 Nan Hua High Sch...veri wierd loh...NHHS...NHSS nicer^_^
den mis lau got married to mr tong...so now is Mdm lau le...never saw her 2dae as she went 4 honeymoon...dunnoe how 2 face her...cause my math cmi...
~climbing up with different ppl pass by mi... ...

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8/31/2005 08:03:00 PM

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Haiz, got abt 1 wk never really sit down and think wat i'm going to blog... now is the time... well, by looking at the title, every1 sld noe dat promos are cuming, even co stopped now for us to study 4 promos....got to get serious this time...cause i want 2 get promoted with 4As...dun feel like dropping any subject though i dun really like physic.. This wk pass really ver fast...still remember i sprain my leg on tue nite den ytd, i was there listening 2 huang seng tok...gotto miss his voice this 1 mth+... Co is getting fun especially with xian yue ppl....I have 2 tell u guys dat u all rox...oso aways bear with my "coldness" haha...we have been walking together till so far... still remember dat huang seng scold us so badly last last time?? Yup, we manage to get out of that period of demorialisation and now, we have prove 2 him we can do it^_^ though he keep staying abt our yin zhun& rhythm...but den during da zhu he never really say anything bad abt us le^_^ we have prove to him even we dun have lots of ppl, we can play quality sounds ^_^.. keep going ppl cause u guys rox.
Sch work issnt getting better... i have been slacking...but i noe wat i sld do now...but 1st, i have 2 complete eom...haiz, i hate pw...the person who "invented" pw must think that all student haf 48 hrs a day...
~I must climb with all my might and focusing now... ...

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8/27/2005 10:08:00 AM

Monday, August 22, 2005

I was kinda bored so try 2 find out my name in Japanese... i type in my chinese name 4 the 1st one and Eng name for 2ns one...in the end, got 2 jap name...
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Think 2nd one is more accurate, cause got the qiu word... but the 1st wan meaning is better...at least flower is better than books rite...lolx
~climb... ...

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8/22/2005 10:17:00 PM

Saturday, August 20, 2005

2dae, or sld say ytd le? aiya heck care, co was so nice.... i'm getting to like the new song shan dan dan hua kai hong yan yan...can't belive my ear when huang seng say...kk heng hao... though he only said once...proof that our effort was not wasted on thurs^_^ sijia is so gd...the only one that play zhonghu loh....yet is louder than the cellos...well done^_^
get 2 go co room earlier as no chem revision...waste 21 msg b'cus of that loh... but nvm...actually want to practice erhu once i reached but hoh... fukang was there teaching guojun loh... so dun dare 2 pratice le in case he started to say lots of things.... in the end... went inside the tunning room to practice...next wk is the last wk 4 co practice...gonna 2 miss co when there's no co...
~climb climb climb

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8/20/2005 12:54:00 AM

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

I realise that sometimes i dun dare to face reality...so have been fining excuses for myself to make mi feel better...at least not that guilty...but somehow...i realise...i should face it bravely...thats what i'm going to do...i will never regret in my life....
life is going on as usual...but the fact is i gain weight....urgh...going to have more determination now....determination is what i need in my life...no more excuses for me...i'm going to give it all out and that's my life^_^
~Climbing with a new goal inside my mind... ...

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8/17/2005 11:00:00 PM

Saturday, August 13, 2005

dunnoe wat 2 write but just feel like wanting 2 blog...hate the feeling of being outcast...o am i being outcast? maybe i just think too much...especially i'm alone listening 2 music and doing stuff... am i really doing anything? not really... i'm just took the train home alone and walk in causeway pt aimlessly.... nt really aimlessly since i still bought somthing that i need.....was aimlessly looking ard on the train&bus...listening 2 music...then my mind will go on 2 think abt others things... things that will not happen...certainly not... but just 2 let my mind wander... ...is like wasting time though u know time is precious...sometimes really cant stand myself....or should i say i hate myself? not being a true me...do i really noe who i am? nowadays my thoughts have brought me far far away from reality... or izzt nearer to reality... i think that i don't really understand myself...to b exact...i dun really noe what i want to be or what type of life i really want... how can i expect others to understand me when i dun even understand myself?? sometimes i like to b alone...but i aways hope that during this period of time...some1 close will come to me and stand by mi..... sadly...it never occurs...frenz have their closer frenz....or have change...but why i have not......maybe just one friend that would really understand me and guide me to understand myself....i know it's hard to know friends that really think like u, know what u r thinking of...i'm nt asking 4 alot...just 1 in my entire life...dats enuf....though i still grateful to all friends who have help me all this while...i admit that i'm a lucky gal...or am i not? there aways some1 to help me out there...every1 always take care of me..be it in sch, in judo, in life... i'm lucky thats what i'm really think...but will i be so lucky 4 ever? i don't know...i just suddenly feel so lost...very very lost... i dunnoe what to do... tutorials?co?piano?exercise?revision? all these is going 2 get me go crazy someday...maybe...one day i will nt take it... i have been decieving myself...i thought i'm nt stress...but is it true? can anyone live happily without stress...bet the happiest person on earth have stress...and who can determine happiness? i hate 2 be alone at night...infront of the com& listen to the music without knowing what to do...this is when i started to think too much and blog crap... ...but this time, i'm really lost...
~Is it too much to ask for someone special to climb up the rocky road with me?

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8/13/2005 10:10:00 PM

Friday, August 12, 2005

Im so malu during chem revesion class 2dae...mr lim borrow my revesion schedule...i 4get i wrote [MAYDAY] on the paper...den he just flash it on the projector...urgh...hate it...den i dunnoe how 2 ans lah...there r 3 chem rep...suppposely lah...but y cant he just call my name...always call me chem rep...den he ask, "u r fan of mayday? Have time 2 go after popstars never have time 2 go after me 4 xtra work 2 do..." i was laughing with my head down loh...dun dare 2 look up...den the whole LT3 ppl noe abt it...den he say next tutorial must sing song 4 him....urgh...still ask jeremy they all 2 remind him...oh no...got 2 try& do all chem qns 2 please him... btw now i anti sun plazza le...cause mr lim live near there& is within 500m from his house... i will never go sun plazza on wkend...
2dae i was complaning y mr lim always called me instead of the others chem rep b4 the revision...den wk is saying bcus i loook like 1 who is the easiest 2 "bully"...*sob*.. do i really look like 1 dat can be make fun of easily??? I dun noe....Haizz...so ppl...now u all noe y am i always so stress during chem lessons...is nt wat i want rite...i cant help it...but den hoh, think ms lee or ms chua say sumthing 2 him...cause now he stopped to ask mi 2 ans qns le^_^ but i prefer 2 ans qns instead of being so malu...urgh...aways feel so malu during chem... now nt only 10/05 noes, 02/05&29/05 oso noes abt it...im going 2 b a laughing material*sob*haiz, sld haf ask 4 a change in chem rep last time...but now, nothing 2 b change...dun think any1 want 2 replace mi as chem rep since so many "memorable" things happen on me...lolx
ytd&2dae co was quite alright...cause huang seng never scold only nag& tell his stories... everytimes ask us 2 go&think...must think b4 we do anithing...co is getting more&more fun now...co rox
~Climbing with pride, but am I able to do it?

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8/12/2005 10:45:00 PM

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

was sleeping when i heard my phone ringing....den unlocked it...guess wat? its 11.45am...really very late...wat shock me is when i look at the msg, its abt pw!! thouoght i have delay the draft so they ask mi 2 cum online...but luckily is nt lah...just dat wk want 2 show mi some info... more&more info 4 pw, more&more things 2 modify, more&more things 2 write, more&more...
woke up late 2dae cause in the morning, sent my brother 2 airport...we left home at ard 2.45am& back at 6.10am?? nt dat sure...haiz...ard 1 yr cant c his real person...but nvm lah...with the advance technology...can still c him online&dun 4get his articles in the newspaper&on blog...
its really very troublesome 2 go usa nowadays due to the terriorist...the guard chech his bag...i think more than 30 mins bah...but we cant do anything rite? Who ask usa to keep on recieve terriorist attack&they cant catch the culprit... ...I think changi airport is so nice in the night...so few ppl..so quiet...but so cold too....its so nice to b there early in the morning... ...got 2 do hw 2dae le...haven been doing it since the "holiday comes" so 2dae must ren ren zhen zhen de do it...
~It's time to start climbing again... ...

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8/10/2005 12:28:00 PM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Yup, it's s'pore bdae today...actually nothing to write abt s'pore bdae...just that i dont know wat title to put only...lolx...ytd sch celebration is like crap&wasting my time...xcept the gaga reflection...its really very nice 2 watch...den i noe spore got a "national treasure?"& famous $1 song...lolx...den cum the picnic thing...thought rain can go homeroom but den hoh...the rain stopped!! got to go aj square instead...but it's quite fun when trying to play games??!! like the "four stone" lolx...ms yup bake cookies...quite nice but hmm...like never keep properly so abit lou feng like dat...den just as we r high...the rain come again...got to rush to canteen den everything got bored....was deciding where 2 go...den when its dismissed..it rain heavier....den decide 4 a very long time...finally decide 2 go home since no place to go....and the rain just stopped...like zhu ding want mi to go home...so went home& slp 4 abt 5hrs?? i noe slp 4 a very long time...2dae went cck kbow wif yiwen&huixian...poor yiwen had 2 travel so far...btw she sing really really very very gd...so nice...unlike mi...keep singing out of tune:( aniway...its fun going out with them^_^ i want 2 watch ndp...waiting 2 watch ndp...dunnow y im so enthu dis yr...last time dun even bother 2 watch...haha...im still waiting 4 the pw draft 2 sent to mi...haiz...dunnow wat to edit...can only write out my views&doubts....leave it to others whu noe to edit bah...meanwhile...i will just slack my way thru... ...
~i'm sitting down to enjoy the scenery... ...

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8/09/2005 05:27:00 PM

Sunday, August 07, 2005

was feeling so tired on fri that i kept on feeling wanting 2 stretch...den hx told mi 2 hang at pull up bar...sure able to stretch...when i heard this rite...dun feel like stretching anymore... everything back to normal...just that i still feel tired&want to slp...den went for chem revision...actually is listen to mr lim saying abt his story again...he keeps calling mi chem rep...den there was 3 chem rep loh...y cant he just call my name??
den go LT2 gor co farewell&handover b4 dazu start...richard was not there so left 4 xperience again...haiz...but now i gradually get use le...and de 2 of them r really picking up quite fast...must noe that they learn abt 1 mth+ bah...den need 2 learn soo many things...its really very tough on them but i noe they sure can do it wan...the j2s came 4 a while den go le...actually when they cum out& took erhu& play...really touch mi...long time never hear so many sound from xy...really miss all those gd times...
ytd went to energy percussion concert....b4 dat went judo...rush back home like mad lah...but overall the concert was great...such a pity gou lao shi never perform...only sit at there conduct 4 one song only....nvm...i still want 2 watch gu guan ren concert...and i mean it.....
waiting 4 my grp 2 sent mi wr draft so that we take turns edit...but haven recieve 1 xpept meiying...but she sent the wrong order... lolx...nvm...such a long wkend...so can slowly take time 2 edit.
~Climing steadily... ...

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8/07/2005 03:21:00 PM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

2dae went 2 pulau tekong...so can leave class at 11.30....waited 4 a veri long time b4 the thing really start...quite fun...bah the places visit too little le...den i really like 2 watch others ppl train... they train like hell while i stand there watch...den the commander short like de pe teachers in sch,"walk! walk somemore!" den really can spot de differences between those who r there 4 a longer period of time&those who just get in...those who just get in nt as fit& den were slower&softer...been sleeping on my trip back 2 sch....
went to mos to have dinner...den thats 1 mother with her daughter sharing table with mi...initially they r waiting 4 their take away food...but then de daughter say she was veri hungry...so they just eat on the spot...waste the plastic bags...I think i cant figure out wats the kids r thinking now...cause when their things dropped on2 de floor...i heard a lound soung"pong" but guess wat de gal say..."luckily it's nt my skirt that drop" wat the hell...cloth won't b broken even if it drop on the floor loh...den their conversation is like dunnoe wat...abt degrees&master...her mum was telling her that degree/master doesnt mean anithing...apparently...de gal godmother[i think] family got ppl with degree/master...den her mum say dat ppl with master/degree might nt b rich[i agree] but den hoh, she say until like kan bu qi those ppl...like so wierd like dat...den dat gal...i think nt ard pri 4 bah...her hp is more latest then mi loh....den her mum is like educating her in a very wierd way...mayb i sld nt comment on how de mother teach de daughter...but it's really veri wierd...o is it im too old 2 understand wat de kids r thinking now?
~I'm nt resting...just stopping down 2 ponder some qns... ...

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8/03/2005 08:24:00 PM

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Must really say that...i really really digress alot evrytime during discussion...but cant help it loh... my pw group is aways digressing...we spent ard 15 mins to discuss serious work but b4 that..spent like abt 1 1/2 hrs digressing loh... but luckily im in this pw group...every1 is abt the same& no one slack o order ppl around...
Today bio test is a disaster...is all abt the applications...haiz...we students only know how to memorise but nt the application loh...so i crap my way thru...so many things abt nature selection...thought the test is on nuclear division...in the end...memorise the stages oso nt very useful...luckily is nt counted...lolx...but at least know what type of qns 2 xpect 4 nuclear division qns already....
Really hope that either Smrt or city cab will approve us 4 face 2 face interview... i getting sian 4 my pw...but we are goinf 2 "fake" it thru...
~Don't hurry me, let me go at my own speed... ...

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8/02/2005 10:41:00 PM

Monday, August 01, 2005

yup, i change my blog skin...but 4 some reasons got lots of problems....so give mi some times 2 tackle the problem& i dun feel like changing de font size of the previous posts...too lazy 2 do so..if i remember, i will change it....meanwhile i going 2 settle as much as pw as possible...of coz...nt 4getting my tutorials...though i aways 4get abt them:p...really hopes that we can conduct interview soon...
~Let me take my own sweet time 2 climb... though i know there's nt much time left... ...

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8/01/2005 10:18:00 PM